hail spring!
harbinger of hope!
rebirth of the cycle
of life and death

hail spring!
when all is new
and fresh and clean
bright shiney white light

hail spring!
an empty slate
waiting to be filled
with visions and memories

hail spring!
closing the door
on all that has been
and opening us up to fresh tomorrows

rain, rain
go away
come again
some other day
need the sun
to shine its rays
junkie bike gurl
wants to play

i am of soft fine silk
swirling in the warm breeze
woven tightly together
green blue lilac rose
my colors vividly enhanced
illuminated brilliantly in
morning sunlight

i am of soft fine silk
embracing my feminine
both gentle and strong
my colors rising up from
the depths of my soul
and shining brilliantly across
the morning sunlight

the space that exists between us
will help me to much more clearly understand
the space that exists between us

when i am too close to you i cannot focus
you transform into my blurred imagination
and i myself vanish from the lens

i have loved you
in another moment
in another lifetime

i awoke in the windows of your eyes
which lit my entire universe
as my heart awoke from its long slumber
spellbound by your mesmeric essence
in the boundlessness of space and infinity

i have loved you
through our roaring raging fires
the burning heat of our desires
as the flames slowly diminished to smouldering embers
by our blindness in the thick fog of its smoke
at last to cold gray ashes at the end of the long night

i have loved you through the agony ...
of our conflicting expectations
of our very sad misunderstandings
of our polar oppositeness
through the deadness in your eyes
the seeping black of midnight
in a starless, moonless sky
and the deepest darkest part
of our existance

i have loved you
in the first rays of morning sunlight
your glory shining in your face
your beauty echoing in your laughter
your passion throbbing on your lips

i am both weak and nothing,
and strong and invincible
within the boundaries
of your embrace

i have loved as you took me
by the hand and led me
down the paths of utter ecstacy
and total destruction
to the secret garden door
of a magical place
that exists only deep inside of me
and have shown me my reflection
in your clear and placid face

i have loved you through the twilight
of your silence
the ceasing of your motivation
the world of lives between us
until.....
we have stopped breathing
together

i have always loved you
and i love you still....

to my valentine....

there is a cave inside
that exists only for you

a door
with only your name on it

it remains in the nighttime
until you enter

and shine your light
on the beauty that lives within

it is of rainbow walls and rose petals
of sparkling river currents

the sun never stops shining
and the moon lights the dark crevices

the stars float all around us
heaven is right here in front of us

you are my heartbeat
you are my breath

all my life begins here in this moment
when your arms are wrapped around me

and the pulse of your breath
is in my ear

my valentine....

i dreamt of your breath on my neck
making the hairs stand on end a chill trickle down my spine
my heart pumping harder pounding with passion and filling me with unleashed desire

your strong hands pulling me closer
so easily readily with no resistance whatsoever from me
your wild eyes your ardent lips your searching tongue your expansive chest your throbbing manhood

i am overcome with love and lust
desire and passion and tormented by this undying longing
to host you to be close to merge into one movement one breath one aim one goal

one

take me

i approach in fearlessness
the fading rays from days gone by
and run into the brightlight
of new tomorrows

to my valentine...

in the twilight when all is still
you come to me from the air
i breathe in to find
you inhale me

we intersect on our individual journeys
reveling through the universe
each alone separate
together

we continue on in unison melding into one
body one soul one mind one life
entwined together
for endless moments

we connect we hold we grasp we join
together and strive to climb this mountain
struggling clutching breathing
heavier

until fireworks explode and stars fall
from the sky all over us just for us
at the top of the hill
and we roll
we release

and we float
down
separate
and alone
again
in the
air

winter's cold and gray
has left my heart
in a state of suspended animation

waiting for the sun
of a warm spring day
in the not too distance future

yet just beyond my reach
i must succumb
to my current state of affairs

as i hold my breath
and wait in hope
for the dawn of the season of promise

standing on the ledge
rain pouring down
needing a friend
no one around

wind eroding rocks
slipping in the sea
trying to hold on
no one to catch me

from my bed, in my nightgown
and wrapped in my Tibetan meditation shawl
with its beautiful deep greens and ecrus
which is exuding and radiating
love and joy both from my morning meditation
and from the hands of those
on the other side of the
world who created it
it is enveloping me in warmth and beauty.
outside my morning bed
the birds sing a delightful serenade
the sun is just beginning to stretch
its golden tendrils in
and onto the edge of my bed
another magnificent day has begun
what a lovely morning
to create a lovely world!

just before the dawn
when the world is still sleeping
i am filled with inspiration
of creating new worlds

but then the hours after
that are filled with dust and static
eliminate the creation
of just before the dawn

i hear a lone songbird
singing in the winter
outside my window
in the cold and clear morning
his song reminds me
of a time not so long ago
where the days were longer
and warmer and brighter
and my heart was filled
and overflowing with joy

i hear a lone songbird
singing in the winter
telling of what has been
of trials and tribulations
of the passing year
of the beauty and wonder
that lies up ahead
in the promise of springtime
where my heart will be filled
and overflowing with love

i dreamt of flowers
blooming on a hillside
filling the morning
with sweetness and beauty and life

i dreamt of birds
singing at the sunrise
filling the sunshine
with melody and purpose and love

i dreamt of you
laying here beside me
holding me to your heart
and wanting me to know you

it is snowing heavier now
and I search for my heart
in the pure clean whiteness
having lost it to the gray
and cold of winter death

the supple red branches
and green sprays
fanned out on my kitchen table

remind me that somewhere
beyond this frozen tundra
life still exists

that spring's promise
remains intact dispite
evidence to the contrary

that hope
remains intact
dispite evidence
to the contrary

i wade through waves of emotion
the tide is getting high
the anger crashes violently on the shore
with thunderous massive power
the undertow pulls back the diminished waves
in soft silent sadness

i wade through waves of emotion
not good at navigating these stormy
and choatic seas of rage hopelessness dispair
i shield my heart from the salt water's erosion
and from the coercive influence
of the sunbeams beckoning me to draw even closer

the icy biting wind raged through the trees
swirling the last final
few dead leaves up into swirling tornado

it raced up to the sky and back down again
down the street and
around the corner to create an impenatrable tunnel

the icy biting wind raged across my face
like a harsh slap
leaving it frozen in the moment

my soul recoils
in preservation
against the harsh bleak grayness
of your winter